(this is not my own)

It's a visualization / meditation exercise for communicating with your subconscious mind (or your higher self, spiritual guides, a higher power, etc.

Go To Your Room

Wouldn't it be great if your subconscious mind could leave you messages the same way someone might leave you a message on voicemail?  How valuable would it be to receive a direct message from your subconscious or higher self?  What if you could not only get a message but have a back-and-forth conversation with your subconscious mind?

When I was a teenager a friend of mine taught me a method for doing just that.  I'd like to share it with you and see if you find it as amazing and valuable as I do.  It's a method I still practice today when I want to receive a direct message from my higher self.  Here's what you do: 

You can do this lying down or in a comfortable chair.  I usually do it at night before I go to sleep since I know I won't be interrupted, and it also helps prepare me for sleep and interesting dreams.

Close your eyes and relax.  Imagine you are walking into an elevator and the doors close.  You are on the 21st floor, and you are on your way down.  See the numbered display above the elevator doors, and notice that the light for the 21st floor is lit.  Now you are going down the elevator, and you see the light for the 20th floor turn on.  Breathe deeply in between floors.  Next you see "19″ and so on.  Feel the motion of the elevator as you go down, see the numbered lights counting down, and count them in your mind as you breathe deeply once or twice in between floors.  When you reach the first floor, the doors open.  Step out.

Now you see a staircase, going down.  There are exactly 21 steps.  Imagine yourself walking down the staircase, but pause for a moment on each step, and take a deep breath before stepping down to the next one.  Count in your mind, and really feel yourself walking down the stairs.  When you reach "1″ you are at the bottom of the staircase.

Now you see a door that is slightly ajar.  You walk up to it, open it, and see a brightly lit corridor with dozens of closed doors along the way.  A guardian is standing there, and you ask him or her to be led to "your room."  Imagine you are being led down the corridor to your room.  Open the door.

What you see inside as you step into your room is entirely up to you and your imagination.  Explore the room and take note of what you see in there.  Is it cluttered or neat?  Is it sterile or cozy?  Does it look futuristic or antiquated?  Is there furniture or is it bare?  Whatever you see is fine.  Just take note of it.

Find a place to sit down and ask to speak to your subconscious, or your higher self, or even your spirit guides.  See who shows up.  Have a conversation with them and ask them what they want you to know.  Then listen.  When you are through, thank them and exit your room.  Be sure to close the door.  Back track your way to the staircase and climb it, counting up from 1 to 21.  Then step into the elevator and do the same, count up from 1 to 21 and step out.  You're done.

Now that is the setup.  Later you can go back to your room any time and talk to whomever you find there.

Then experiment!  When I go to my room, there is a chalkboard.  And on that chalkboard is always a written message from my higher self.  Perhaps in your room there is an answering machine, and you simply need to press play to hear the message.  Or perhaps when you enter your room a phone is ringing, and you answer it and hear your message on the other end.  Come up with a way for your subconscious or higher self to leave you messages that you can check when you don't want to have a lengthy conversation. 

You can use this method to get clarity on a problem by asking a specific question, then going into your room and seeing your answer on the chalkboard, or dry erase board, or hear it on your spiritual answering machine.  Or you can use this method to have a long talk with your higher self or subconscious mind.

I've even gone so far as to lay down on the couch in my "room" and proceed to mentally enter another elevator and go down another 21 floors, then 21 steps, then into another corridor with another room!  Talk about a trip!  You could also try asking the corridor guardian to be taken to someone else's room (perhaps a spouse or family member) and meet their higher self!  See what happens and what their room looks like to you.

You can redecorate or make other changes to your room.  If it's cluttered, clean it up!  You might find that your life is getting "cleaned up" by doing this.  I've also done a room addition on mine so that now there is a cozy, comfortable bedroom for me to sleep in when I don't feel like going all the way back up the stairs and elevator.

The insights on this journey are invaluable.  And the dreams you'll have after doing this exercise may be a little more clear than usual.  Pay attention to them and what they might be trying to tell you.  And the next time you're feeling unsettled or unclear about something in your life, just go to your room!

Recently I have noticed how much I need to force myself to relax.  Relxation and meditation have fallen out of habit for me, and I very desperately need to get back into the habit. Sometimes I manage to convince myself that I don't have enough time, or that i have better things to do.... LIES!!!  Taking at least 10 minutes of the day to relax and seperate your thoughts from each other is very important to the overall state of mind.  i really need to start doing this again.  Wow.  Also, about meditation,  I feel as though i should investigate newer more proactive methods.  My form of meditation is mainly just a place for me to get away from life, whereas I need meditation to sort out my ideas and focus on the most important issues. 

I suppose suggestions would be helpful.

I am having a very hard time keeping a level head.  College is fine and homework isn't any sort of burden, but I must tread carefully in these next few weeks when it comes to my own emotions and sanity.  I need to be much more concsious of where I choose to step or, rather, where I choose not to.  Does that make any sense?  Simplified, I am letting myself get lonely and bored out of my mind instead of making any effort to find activities I will enjoy or friends to spend time with.  Before I got here I had even made lists of things I could do to keep myself occupied but I find myself making excuses like "It is far too cold outside" and "I have no means of transportation".  When I first arrived I went to the club with a bunch of girls but I found I didn't enjoy it one bit.  Those girls were nice enough, but I have not spent time with them since.  Something about college intimidates me and, though I am here now and  I am fine (so far), that intimidation spreads fromjust the academic aspects and radiates from other students as well.  I'm slightly ashamed of myself for being so sheepish... but something really really embarrassing happened to me in the second week of me being here and I just wanted to crawl in a hole and die.  No matter how hard I tried to laugh it off and chill out I just couldn't shake the shame and hid my face for a good 5 days.  I'm alright now, but I still avoid that one person like a cat avoids water.
So, loneliness and boredom are the biggest things on my plate right now, which I recognize as being a blessing since I have complete control over both.

In my earlier post I stated how nervous I was about starting college.
The fear I have of college is not that of making new friends, being in a new environment, or even college life (such as parties and temptation).  My fear is of failure.  I don't want to suck at the academic part.  I know i'm a smart person, and tests have told me I'm smarter than a lot of people my age, but in the past i failed academically becasue my lack of... motivation?  Excitement?  Interest?  It's a scary thing to go back to that, knowing how much your parents are paying for this and not knowing waht you want to do with your life.  I have so many loves in life, music, art, nature, animals, writing, that I don't know what to pick as a study.  I have chosen Animal Care at this point, but even now I'm questioning my decisions.  I also want to study botany, herbology, art, anatomy, forestry, and so much more. 

The stress of preparing to actually attend the college is still there, meaning I still need to schedule placement testing and more, which could possibly put me in Massachusetts in TWO DAYS.  *deep breaths*

It has been... hmmm... almost three months sice I moved from Georgia.  Is that not enough time to get some clothing and doodads into a couple boxes and at the very least get an estimate on the price of shipping?  Nevermind actually sending them out?  I don't think Jon realizes how soon I'm leaving for college.  He told me he would get the things sent out before Chrismas... uhm... where are they?  I'm not sure if it's because of this... annoyance or not, but I'm finding myself losing interest in him.  It just seems like too much trouble for something that apparently wasn't even that great.  I can't  even believe my feelings have changed so dramatically; I used to be head over heels for this guy.  It was the crush of the century!  It's something I'm going to have to think about.  Something I'll actually have to clear my mind for.  Sometimes I can get my thoughts out with paper, but this is a deeper issue.  Currently, however, I do find myself eager to move on...

... in more than one area of my life.  Though I may be deathly afraid of school (not learning, but paid classes), I am eager for a change.  I can never stay in New York City very long; the sounds, smells, and lack of nature irk me.  My parents are getting to me as well.  I tend to make choices tht they do not agree with, and that is understandable.  I recently made a decision they were not happy with and, as a result, I am only to use my computer in the family room.  I did not let myself become frustrated with this, because it would make both my parents and me unhappy.  Instead I tried to see the reason in their verdict and, even though I did not agree fully, convinced myself that I could handle not using my computer in my room.  It's quite simple, really.  In the past I would have been very upset that they were taking away some of my freedoms, but this time I resigned myself to accept it fully.  Even though it is a little inconvenient, I can remind myself that it will not last long at all.  I have just one more week and off I go to college!  (scared)

Somewhat back-tracking now, I really think I'd rather be single right now.  I'm surprising myself with how much I've changed!  I talk to a lot of boys (some old, some new) and many of them try to pursue me.  I definitely flirt with them (which makes me wonder if I'm cruelly leading them on) but with most I have no interest in dating or anything more than friendship.  The occasional one...... meaning just one...... does catch my eye though.  This is yet another subject I must meditate on.  I see a potential relationship in him but I don't think I want it just now.  Goodness gracious me-oh-my....  he is a sweetheart though and I love getting closer to him when we talk ♥

We shall see.

annnnd my favorite quote:  Que sera, sera!

I am getting ready for college!  I'll be getting my packing list soon and then next wednesday or so I am off to massachusetts!  I have been very nervous these few weeks leading up to school.  I haven't been in school since last April and boy, was i glad to escape! now I am voluntarily going back!  Though, looking back at where I have been, I know that i am making the right decision. 

 My goodness what a journey the past few years have been! you must read my blog to get an idea and even still, much is left out. (i'm open to sharing, just contact me)

There are some things in life you just have to accept.  That's not to say that you don't have a choice whether or not you accept it, but more along the lines of "If I don't deal with this now, I'm going to be very unhappy."  One of those things is the loss of a loved one.  In my case, that would be the end of a relationship.  For others, it could be much more permanent.  There is no way you can change what has happened; the person has moved on to better things or the afterlife.  This is something you have no control over and therefore you are forced to deal with it.  Many people find themselves in depression because they do not want to accept what has happened, but it it is truth that until they do, they will not be at peace.  Understanding that this is an unchangeable fact aids in the process of letting go.  There is one obstacle that remains: acceptance does not relieve the pain.  Grief is a process, and acceptance is part of that process, but it is not the cure-all for heartache.

I just realized something.  Many things in life are intertwined.  Like symbiosis between a clownfish and an anemone.  For example, a healthy body contributes to a healthy state of mind, and an uplifted spirit.  Being in a healthy state of mind might not be crucial to having a body that is well taken care of and in shape, but it surely is a benefit.  Today, after realizing this, I worked out for 2 hours, then came back and did some relaxation yoga, then took a hot shower.  It was a good day for this realization, since some very hurtful words were directed at me earlier on.  I found that the released endorphins lifted my spirits quite a bit.  Now it's just a matter of getting myself to exercise regularly....  I've always been pretty lazy about that.