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November 2009 
On the Wings of Furtherance (cont'd)
Posted on Jan 5th, 2009
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Harley Quinn
Harley Quinn
In my earlier post I stated how nervous I was about starting college.
The fear I have of college is not that of making new friends, being in a new environment, or even college life (such as parties and temptation). My fear is of failure. I don't want to suck at the academic part. I know i'm a smart person, and tests have told me I'm smarter than a lot of people my age, but in the past i failed academically becasue my lack of... motivation? Excitement? Interest? It's a scary thing to go back to that, knowing how much your parents are paying for this and not knowing waht you want to do with your life. I have so many loves in life, music, art, nature, animals, writing, that I don't know what to pick as a study. I have chosen Animal Care at this point, but even now I'm questioning my decisions. I also want to study botany, herbology, art, anatomy, forestry, and so much more.
The stress of preparing to actually attend the college is still there, meaning I still need to schedule placement testing and more, which could possibly put me in Massachusetts in TWO DAYS. *deep breaths*
The fear I have of college is not that of making new friends, being in a new environment, or even college life (such as parties and temptation). My fear is of failure. I don't want to suck at the academic part. I know i'm a smart person, and tests have told me I'm smarter than a lot of people my age, but in the past i failed academically becasue my lack of... motivation? Excitement? Interest? It's a scary thing to go back to that, knowing how much your parents are paying for this and not knowing waht you want to do with your life. I have so many loves in life, music, art, nature, animals, writing, that I don't know what to pick as a study. I have chosen Animal Care at this point, but even now I'm questioning my decisions. I also want to study botany, herbology, art, anatomy, forestry, and so much more.
The stress of preparing to actually attend the college is still there, meaning I still need to schedule placement testing and more, which could possibly put me in Massachusetts in TWO DAYS. *deep breaths*
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One step at a time, dear one. I’m sure looking forward at the next semester and next year and next four years feels daunting, but luckily you don’t need to do it in one giant leap. :) Just keep putting one food in front of another (or placing one word in front of the next, or taking one breath at a time) and you’ll be just fine. Promise.